Title: Dig My Grave
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Personal work.
Warnings: Slightly scattered train of thought.
Summary: A look within myself, going back to roots in childhood. Deals with death, belief, and love.
Note: This is truth from my point of view, if you ask others who were there, they might see it differently.
the soap upon my skin
shampoo upon my hair
I am made of white
toothpaste in my mouth
toilet paper beneath
I am made of white
shirt over my head
bra upon my breasts
I am made of white
bread into the toaster
milk within my glass
I am made of white
semen in my mother
many years ago
I am made of white
Title: These Dreams
Author: nutmeg kawano
Rating: nc-17
Disclaimer: These are merely my versions of the artists in question. Obviously I know nothing of the real people, and quite frankly probably never will. I claim no ownership or anything of the sort. Obviously these events are fictional and have no basis in reality what-so-ever.
Warnings: YAOI, slash, whatever. Boy on boy. Don’t like it? Don’t read it. C’est simple.
Pairing: HydexGackt
Summary: Smut, plain and simple. Total PWP Lemony goodness and all that jazz. Oh, and it’s kinda short.
Note: This is dedicated to my own haido. Love you lots <3 <3 <3
Title: SMILE
Author: nutmeg kawano
Contact: miphileg@ hotmail.com
Rating: nc-17
Disclaimer: These are merely my versions of the artists in question. Obviously I know nothing of the real people, and quite frankly probably never will. I claim no ownership or anything of the sort. Obviously these events are fictional and have no basis in reality what-so-ever.
Warnings: YAOI, slash, whatever. Boy on boy. Don’t like it? Don’t read it. C’est simple.
Pairing: HydexGackt
Summary: Gackt is getting ready for the day but is distracted by certain thoughts and memories.
Note: This fic is a result of reading too much into album names and me listening to far too much Hyde & Klaha solo music… why Hyde and Klaha lead to gakuhai in my mind, I will never know, but thems the breaks. Many thanks to nyde & lauraorganasolo for beta reading this.
Title: Loneliness
Author: nutmeg kawano
Contact: miphileg@ hotmail.com
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Personal work.
Warnings: aNGsT.
Summary: Questioning, pensive.
Note: More mood writing.
There once was a girl, so they say
Who preferred women to men anyday
Her parents got mad
They said she was bad
She said “I’m not bad, I’m just gay.”
[kanji/kana]
はるか昔のことなのでよく覚えていません
手伝っていただけたら、ありがたいです
あきらめが肝心です
きょおは波が荒い
波が岸おあらって射る
あんな所で遊んは危ないな
[romanji]
Haruka mukashi no koto na no de yoku oboete imasen
Tetsudatte itadaketara, arigatai desu
Akirame ga kanjin desu
Kyoo wa nami ga arai
Nami ga kishi o aratte iru
Anna tokoro de asonde wa abunai na
[english]
It happened long ago, I do not remember it clearly
I would be grateful if you helped me
We should know when to give up
The sea is rough today
The waves crash upon the shore
It is dangerous to walk in such a place
*just a note: my japanese is horrible. I would never have accomplished this without my handy-dandy dictionary
Title: Unwanted
Author: nutmeg kawano
Contact: miphileg@ hotmail.com
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Personal work.
Warnings: aNGsT.
Summary: Dark, bitter.
Note: Just trying to write off a mood.
obsidian, pure dark
please don’t leave me alone
for to see things clearly
is the power of this stone
the truth is a dagger
in a songwriter’s heart
exposes rare beauty
then tears the place apart
and we don’t like to hear
the words that bring pain
because then we repeat them
just to hear them again
we cry when it hurts
but the pain stays the same
growing and throbbing
so we all go insane
forced to leave her world of pez and pixie stix
forced into the world of jaw breakers
her dreams are too soft for reality
but she still wants to try
and she wants to be a hero
so she brings her guitar
a true song comes from her heart
too quiet to be heard
she’s a bright young star
no intentions of falling
a bright you star
see how she glows
in the dark blue night
now her dreams are all drowning
did you break her heart?
he didn’t share her dream
now he’s gone
left alone with her fear
she tries again
sorrow shakes her voice
anger rips words from her soul
it comes out of her throat
as sweet, sweet rock ‘n’ roll
she’s a bright young star
no intentions of falling
a bright you star
see how she glows
in the dark blue night
now her dreams are all drowning
did you break her heart?
still she sings
sweet sad sparrow
locked in a cage of unhearing ears
the music pours from her broken heart
but broken music doesn’t sell
and too soon her life will end
too much like her songs
a waste of breath
did you break her heart?
her brightness falters
she’s a fallen star