Saw Dr. A today. He witnessed first hand some of the joy which is my trembling hands/weak muscles and decided to lower my lithium down 300 mg again to see if that helps with it. He’s also going to try to get me into the Royal Ottawa Hospital’s outpatient program, whereby I would see a psychiatrist on a regular basis. This is a good thing. I think. He’s also asked me to try and get involved with the Mood Disorder support group that’s run out of the RHO/with them/something. This makes me a lot more nervous. How can I talk to strangers about things I don’t even want to tell my closest friends?

On the plus side, I’ve now spoken to both a pharmacist and Dr. A about the nsaids and their affect on lithium. Both said Advil once or twice a day for pain shouldn’t be too bad. Especially since we are monitoring my blood levels and my lithium tends to be on the low end of medicinal. But there was another blood test today (yey more holes in my body) so we’ll see if the shaking is from poisoning or just regular side effect.

I just don’t know. Nothing really seems to help anymore. Can I just quit now? Please?