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Month: March 2008

::: Your Salvation :::

::: Your Salvation :::

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in painful indifference
how often this heart is broken
too much yet still not enough
there is no difference

the bullet thought
shattered me, scattered
I found myself in my remains

tower of wooden blocks
your pieces are greater
than my whole ever was
spread me across the floor

mouth open, eyes closed
there is your world
your silence down my throat
I hate your salvation
it was my cross to carry

the firing squad removed
while I was only blindfolded
never gained earned death

trembling whispers shake me
prayers redeeming redemption
broken stone gods in the sky
horses painted on the hills

copper for your thoughts
and silver for the soul
betray myself before you

she who prevails has not won
victory is wounded and torn
in love with her vanity fallen
dress tattered, collapsing

gunshot through the head
dark eyes spread wild
body twitches into existance
and gasps for breath

blood spatters into wings
shadow a memory of the wall
stumbling into resurrection

::: Transparent :::

::: Transparent :::

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If I wrote a thousand songs
would you notice when
every single one was for you?

so I don’t say your name
I’m still transparent

and now it’s gray, collecting gray
like thunderclouds building
do you like the rain?

I stare out the window
like you stare through me

I write your song, notes appearing
like raindrops on my page

and words follow slowly
for you tie my tongue up so

But if I let slip your name
just once, a tattered whisper

I have this funny feeling
you’ll see right through me
as if I wasn’t there

my words will fall at your feet
along with my unnoticed heart

::: open :::

::: open :::

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forcing myself open
but you don’t even care
how could you notice?
you didn’t know me
when I was closed

forcing myself open
eyes too wide to view
blind from staring
will you want me?
my beauty blinds

forcing myself open
legs spread field and sky
does that make you see?
heaven’s whore still untrue
I mean nothing

forcing myself open
this flower slowly dies
for its need to be seen
for you

::: Secret Admirer :::

::: Secret Admirer :::

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do I love you or what you are?
I hate this desire I no longer speak
of what use is it anyway?
would you believe if I told you?
would you believe I can’t show you?

can I love you and not what you are?
it scares me to think that I should do so
you are so beautiful you see
would you believe I could want you?
would you believe my desire’s true?

will I love you and what you are?
how can I refuse when both are lovely
and my dreams whisper you name
would you believe I should fear this?
would you believe in my silence?

do I love you or what you are?
perhaps you will never know, nor shall I
greater care will silence bring
would you believe my sacrifice?
would you believe love’s dearest cost?

::: Horizon :::

::: Horizon :::

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Title: Horizon
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Although these characters are based on real people, they are by no means accurate representations of them. Nor are any of the situations described based on actual events. This is fiction for the pure and simple pleasure of it.
Summary: Hyde sings his baby to sleep.
Note: Just an image in my mind I wanted to write out. I think Hyde’s son is well past infant now. >.> Kind of nice to listen to Hyde’s song “Horizon” while reading it. Rather short.

but in my heart, a distant hope is mine forever more

::: Of Gondolin :::

::: Of Gondolin :::

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Title: Of Gondolin Part 2/??
Rating: PG-13 so far
Pairing: GlorfindelxLaiqalassë, GlorfindelxEcthelion & a few random hinted ats…
Disclaimer: Although these characters are based on Tolkien’s, they are by no means completely accurate representations of them. And although some of the situations described are based on canon events, these are my interpretations of it. This is fiction for the pure and simple pleasure of it, nothing for profit. I own nothing.
Summary: Life in Gondolin, for the Lord and Captain of the House of the Golden Flower.
Note: This is all amakarie’s fault for encouraging me. This part beta’d by amakarie & shizzical but further feedback is welcomed.

Part 2: Friendship

::: Of Gondolin :::

::: Of Gondolin :::

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Title: Of Gondolin Part 1/??
Rating: PG-13 so far
Pairing: GlorfindelxLaiqalassë, GlorfindelxEcthelion & a few random hinted ats…
Disclaimer: Although these characters are based on Tolkien’s, they are by no means completely accurate representations of them. And although some of the situations described are based on canon events, these are my interpretations of it. This is fiction for the pure and simple pleasure of it, nothing for profit. I own nothing.
Summary: Life in Gondolin, for the Lord and Captain of the House of the Golden Flower.
Note: This is all amakarie’s fault for encouraging me. I figure I should finally post the bits that are done. They’ve been looked at by amakarie and shizzical. This part seems kind of short compared to the others, but that’s where the split felt right!

Part 1: Distraction