Tea With a Mad Girl

blood congeals
within the veins
tears through
swollen flesh

forms wings

of purest black
seven sets
when the job is done
soulders, wrists and ankles
are the first to show
the thighs and waist
and another just below
the first upon the shoulders

merciless pain in birth
but they are a reward
pain leads to joy
joy is eternal

angels soar
with butterflies

a simple rose
drawn in pen
may show love
but then again
it could show pain
that comes and goes
maybe it’s not
just a simple rose

so beautiful
while it lives
it never takes
it only gives
even if it
will mean death
beauty until
the dying breath

stars that burn as bright as day
seem so pale from far away
wishing you had come to stay
dreams destroyed with no delay

tears that fall down from my face
i just feel so out of place
like my mind is off in space
life is gone without a trace

lives that end for no reason
come and go like a season
like leaves blowing on trees and
over sooner than is pleasing

what games are played with the toys
that god has named girls and boys
creating all new strange joys
making so much cosmic noise

falling at the speed of light
knowing not what’s wrong or right
demons you must stand and fight
both at day and in the night

painted face
bright costume
i hide behind these things
as i watch you live
how do you have such strength?
i am lost without you
and though i sit beside you
i am alone
you don’t care
i am nothing to you
nothing
i am nothing

approach the forest
see the youth with horns
atop his head, running running
free like the creatures
beneath the sunlit day
’til Artemis show her pale face
she looks down on creation
it is beautiful

Mercury with the wingéd heel
runs through the sky
pulling the winds this way and that
laughing sadly at the human world
watching them destroy themselves
crying as creation cries
dying as creation dies
it was beautiful

fiery heart of the Mother
exploding to the surface of creation
flows then cools
becoming vulnerable earth
heat and flames
used to brun the things
that make the poison
the death of beautiful

global waters of the sea
no longer clear blue oceans
made from the salt tears of our Lady
pumped full of poisons
she silently screams for help
she calls to her children
she believes it’s not too late
it can still be beautiful

whispered words
a prayer or spell
doesn’t matter
you’re still not coming back
i love you so much
but four months is a long time
you’ve continued your life
and i’ve stayed in the shadows
the shadows of the past
you loved me
i was foolish
i deserved to lose you
if only

the beautiful pain
of a love in vain
fills my precious soul
keeps my conscience full
think how it began
now I touch your hand
and you pull away
stop these games you play
they pull me apart
these strings on my heart
were placed there by you
whe you loved me too
but those days are gone
though my love lives on
continues alone
call me on the phone
write me a letter
please make it better
my heart screams your name
I’m just not the same

scarlet droplets
of blood tinged tears
my red rimmed eyes prove
i’ve cried too long
have you even cried at all?
the flowers you gave me are all dead
is your love dead, too?

i see a single black feather
and my vision blurs
i bite my lip
no more tears
but they come anyway
like my love for you
i cannot refrain